Woke up today with no reason at all. Finding my self longin so bad to take a life but with no motive to go on. Badly damaged and mentally unstable to communicate with one self. Manipulated by ddream. voices in my head . Hunted by the beauty of death. Lost in the world without lightness only darkness consumes within.Trapped in a loop whole between reality and fantasy. Weird nightmares selling my soul to the devil, funny no crossroad to persuade the dream.
Words trending in my head # imagination corrupted by self doubt. One step closer to end it all. Still no motive to go on. Continue reading
I really don’t understand why we fight, among-st our self’s just for someone else to gain from it. People are making profit, out of war,i mean to them is game. A game only them can control.
They don’t care who gets hurts along the way,
As long as they get what they want..
people are influenced to do bad to gain from it. youth is been manipulated to join some sort of an army,for some unnecessary excuse of a war. Making up bad stories about other countries , so they can destroy. Using fear against us, while we pull a trigger to another . So blind. Come to think of it. is it necessary to kill in order to gain from it? I mean in that split second when you look, at someone and pull that trigger, is the moment you loose your humanity, which something you will never get back. so what’s the point in all of this?
There’s bigger issues than war out there, people a starving , while anthers a craving the thrill of blood. Where have we gone wrong, to loose touch within our self’s?
The thing’s we do for others and not done for us are stupidly not recognised till is to late. Sacrifices we make to empress!! the need to be noticed, the attention we crave and long for…Word’s spoken but never really been meant for us to hear. The troubles we go through to show, what is it that needed to be seeing. The need that never get satisfied . this are common thing’s we go through in life, things that no matter how much we try to manage or avoid them…… all we get are only disappointments upon our self’s.
Honestly the things we long for!! i ask my self, are we ever going to get satisfied with thing’s we have or want ? Aren’t we satisfied with what we have now?
I spend my time wondering what I want in this world!! I’ve wasted a lot of time and energy not knowing what I want in life.. Told my self many times that I wanna batter my self. to become the greatest of them all but nothing worked as such! No inspiration to inspire, no will to live anymore. Every step i take total failure! seems like I’m cursed or something: I mean my life is like a slow train crawling up a hill. I got to do something…goats must be slaughtered,
rituals to be performed. I too wanna have that slice of cake, so I can live my life a quarter mile! whatever that means. I need to stop complaining and start doing. No time will wait for no man, nor wasted will ever regained.
Let me take you into a journey. a trip down to memory lane if I may say. Memories that when you think about them, keeps nothing but smile and joyful tears…Remember that very first time you kissed a boy/girl!!! feeling like you were floating in time and space!! those butterflies in your tommy. feeling like nothing can stop you now!!!
Yeah….great times. the first time you experience making love eish…that very first step you took and fell so hard, when you were a baby. For that first time you held your new born baby. That moment when you where born, you crying while everyone around you celebrating a glorious day.
To me this are the best memories ever!!
and I know there’s a lot of good memories out there!! memories that we shouldn’t forget.
I came into a conclusion that human kindness, will never change or adjust on that matter. that our humanity is lost dead as a matter of fact. Even from childhood sharing was not even considered sometimes. Neighbours become strangers, friend’s become enemies.This nowadays sharing is carrying doesn’t recycle on anyone’s lips. Is like we’re all robot’s /zombies now being controlled my greed… and probably pride Yesssss being to much greedy and seeing your self above other’s like your special or something. Forgetting that one day you’ll need that kindness, kindness from someone.
All am trying to say is that lack of Kindness, is a lack of humanity. and without that what’s the point of living?
Here is an interesting facts!! Earth our beloved planet, is covered with 75% of water and 25% of land… Bare with me!!!!!
Youth is blinded by technology with all those social media crap!!! not even thinking about global warming or economic situation out there! just busy texting and God knows what. Are we all blind? are we blind or afraid to ask our self’s what will happen if that 75% of water act up…. or are we more concerned of making money? are we ignoring the fact that we’re living in the edge? that any time the lights can go out without a blink of an eye? or is it a human thing to live and destroy?
I don’t just write because they write!! Sure they inspire me to become batter at what I do. My experience and passion in writing comes from deep within my soul. I express my feelings with undecoded wo:rds, to reach out and reactivate mind’s while I teach!! that’s my goal. Manipulating words through transcendence space and time, that’s my specialty. I live to learn and teach whenever I can…..Like Albert Einstein said Imagination is more important that knowledge 🙂 So I conga word’s the same way as the pastor, preaches for his congregations. Rather than that my inspiration is facts. Facts!!!!!!!!!!
We are born to share a bond, to share something unique. We all wanna love someone or something in this life and be loved back in return…to hold and be held from time to time, to understand and being understood every now and then!!
To have that kind of strange love, meaning that unexplain feeling that you get when you see or being with that someone.
I believe sharing that kind of strange love with someone it’s the most beautiful gift ever been granted. and only few live to experience that kind of love 😉
I often long it so bad…….unfortunately love doesn’t live here anymore ;-( but anyways to share that priceless need, it doesn’t come easy!! Like Robert Burton said…….. Great feelings will often take the aspect of error, and great faith the aspect of illusion. Nowadays Royalty Is A Bitch!!!!!!! just saying 😉
We all have a sort of purpose to serve, in this life. we were brought to this planet to do / became something yes. but my concern is are we doing what has to be done? are we serving that purpose or we are more interested into consuming from this planet? and at the same time human kindness is 0000.1.00.1% are we loosing our humanity over money? and if so are we capable of changing? This planet is dying and we do blind to see that!!!! BLINDED BY MATERIAL THINGS. I don’t think our purpose is to destroy this planet and leaving nothing but misery and pain. Why not think for our children’s children.
My point in all of this, is let’s all do what is needed to be done and pass on leaving Earth unharmed for the next generation. And I think is time for change yes?
Just saying 😉